A Woman’s Confidence is Most Important

So, I fell in love and got my heart broken over and over again…fell in love to the point I lost my identity and got my heart broken to the point of forgetting who I am in the first place. In a sense, I have no regrets, because at the very least I gave it my all, got broken, but survived in the end. And then, I realized, that’s just life. That’s just one of life’s basic lessons. Even though, he’s not the first man I love, he’s certainly the only one who managed to break my heart to this extent. To the extent that I lost all muse to write, despite that writing is supposed to be one of my eternal lovers.

Anyhow, asides from that, the main reason why I haven’t update is mainly due to bad internet signal in a very small town!!! ><” The good news is, I’m finally back home, in the place I grew up in; a place where I can feel no guiltiness with anonymity. I’m an introvert by nature, so anonymity without guilt feel just right at home.

So, what does this mean?  You’ll be expecting a lot of fangirling here again!! Along with other randomness. Honestly, I have to admit, this is kinda like my online diary,  but who cares?! You’re all just harmless stalkers anyways. And if you’re not harmless, there’s no doubt in my mind I’d be calling the police on you faster than the speed of light! ^^

So, here are some stuff I learned from the man that I love the most:

  • Being your own self is important, because there’s a possibility that he would leave you. And if that’s the case, then (for example) you might ended up letting your hair grew long for him when you are more comfortable with short hair in the first place! Honestly babe, just get whatever hair style you want…make yourself happy first before anything.
  • Exes are exes for a reason…some might be quick to say stuff like “accepting that your man still keep in touch with his ex and being best friend with his ex is totally okay! If you can’t accept it, then you are childish.” Uh….no. It really depends. But most importantly, a mature woman should consider and know how she feels and what she truly wants. If she’s not comfortable with her boyfriend constantly contacting his ex (especially if there’s no good reason!), that’s totally okay. She shouldn’t have to force herself be “mature” when she’s clearly hurt and crying inside.
  • Go at your pace and grow at your pace…because that’s really what life is all about; discovering yourself and being comfortable with your own skin.

Next up is either fangirling, fanfics, or my own silly webtoon time (“Leo’s Debut” or “Nonesense”) gain! XD Thanks for reading all this time~! =D


Is It Really Out There? Re: Correspondence (Bloodstains)

Alright, what’s up with the past couple of days?  Don’t tell me that she is finally going to get me now?  Because I posted this?

Lol if so, then I’m flattered…but kinda a tiniest bit scared at the same time. XD

As always, Correspondence is an awesome piece of work (but I totally couldn’t keep up with the story at this point…such big gap between updates…@____@).  I will eventually have to re-read everything from the beginning.

Stats from yesterday…is Bloodstains going to update soon???


Stats of today so far…and the day hasn’t even ended. This story better be just a make-up story like all those fairy tales out there.

Inspiring Instagrams that I Follow #001

These days, Instagram seems to have successfully replaced 9GAG for me.  I only follow accounts that I like (either the contents are interesting OR that they’re my real friends…lol).  I want to stay sincere and just “like” what I like (and secretly hope that people who follow me genuinely like my content too, unless they’re my real friends who got stuck with following my account due to friendship…then be prepared to be spammed XD ). ^^  *le sigh* my Instagram account is just as much of a big mixing pot as this blog. ^^”

Anyways, enough blahs.  Just want to bring some more attention to the following Instagram accounts that I find particularly inspiring or just has that special X factor (that’s not to say the rest of the other accounts I follow are not awesome…in fact, they’re all awesome and interesting!).  Not in any particular order:

Wubby Panda by wubbyland

Cute illustrations of an adorable Panda named Wubby Panda!  I hope that the creator will sell Wubby Panda merchandise someday!  The artwork is just amazingly cute and realistic (especially the food).  The food-related posts are some of the most deliciously looking 2D drawings that I’ve seen so far.

Little Yellow Bird by tweetykweelapis

Look! It’s Tweety bird! XD Looking at the world from the perspective of Tweety the plush toy. This is a fun and creative project. It especially helps to make those nasty “Monday blues” go away.  ^^

Veganmatoria by veganmatoria

Follow this account and be prepared to be inspired by this awesome young vegan lady!  She has tons of yummy vegan recipes and great at inspiring people to work out, change our lives for the positive, and being comfortable in our own skin.  I’m forever in love with her deliciously looking berry nice cream.  That’s right, it’s “nice cream”, not “ice cream”.

Anyways, have fun following them!  ^^

Random Thoughts & Muses #002

Back again with another “online diary” post, full of things that I currently can’t find anyone to say it to without making it seem out of the blue (which, it is) except for the wall…and frankly, I don’t like the wall every much.  Is this what people call, “shower thoughts”, really? Continue reading

Racism is, Unfortunately, Still a Very Real Thing in Canada

A rare and serious reflection here.  Topic might be sensitive for some readers, so readers’ discretion is advised.

I grew up as a city girl and while I have met some occasional jerks, I’ve never felt anyone was being racist towards me.  So, when I started attending university and taking up Asia-Canada courses at Simon Fraser University (that’s my extended Minor), I couldn’t really sympathized with some of my Asian-Canadian professors and lecturers who have grew up in the city or suburb during the 60s, 70s, 80s, and early 90s (some even earlier as they are 4th or 5th generation of Asian-Canadians) and experiencing racism and recalling painful memories.  I honestly, in the back of my mind, thought they were just exaggerating. Continue reading